He Orders Our Days

Blog 6

He Orders Our Days

The diagnosis of breast cancer stage three had us reeling. The result from the PET scan showed that it had not spread. That brought some peace of mind. However, what was to be our next step? The doctor wanted to immediately schedule for a port for chemo to be put in. Wait a minute! This was happening too fast. I needed to breathe! Everyone had their own opinion, and I know everyone meant well, but I only wanted to hear from God. As usual, I woke up early the next morning to seek God’s counsel. I had always felt that if I should ever have cancer that I would try to avoid the regular treatment of bombarding my body with chemo, and then radiation. After all, my body is His temple. “I am fearfully and wonderfully made,” and it just didn’t seem like that was the right thing to do. I had family members and close friends who went through it, and I was determined that was not the way for me. I was impressed that God was leading me in a different direction.

 I had been searching all morning for a word from the Lord. I opened the Bible for guidance, but after searching I couldn’t find an answer. So, I decided to research two cancer treatment centers that I had heard about. I had left the two sites up, and while going to them I accidentally came to a different site that I had also previously left opened. It was a lecture from Dr. Thomas Jackson from MEET Ministry (www.meetministry.org) There God gave me the answer. It was a quote from Ministry of Healing, pg. 127:

“Disease is an effort of nature to free the system from conditions that result from a violation of the laws of health. In case of sickness, the cause should be ascertained. Unhealthful conditions should be changed. Wrong habits corrected. Then, nature is to be assisted in her efforts to expel impurities and to reestablish right conditions in the system. Pure air, sunlight, abstemiousness, rest, exercise, proper diet, the use of water- these are the true remedies…..Nature’s process of healing and upbuilding is gradual and to the patient it seems slow. The surrender of hurtful indulgences require sacrifice. But in the end, it will be found that nature, untrammeled, does her work wisely and well. Those who persevere in obedience to her laws will reap the reward in health of body and health of mind.” As a strong believer in the health message and in God’s eight laws of health, I understood God’s plan for me.

God is the Alpha and the Omega and the Way in between. He knows my journey. Tony and I chose to follow Him. After much prayer and seeking, we  decided that we would take an alternative approach to treating this cancer. It would not be a popular decision….it would meet much opposition, but God made it clear that this was OUR road to travel. Everyone has a different journey but it is important to be obedient to what God has called you to.  God wanted to take me on a journey to continue the work He had begun in me, so He could teach me to fully rely on Him for healing, and that through it all His name will be glorified, not mine, not any doctor, but His. Phillipians 1:6 “Being confident of this very thing, that He which has begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ.” It is God’s desire to restore us to Himself, to see His own purity and holiness reflected in us. If we will yield ourselves to Him, He that begun a good work in you will carry it forward to the day of Jesus Christ. Pray more fervently; believe more fully.” SC 64

And so, we decided to go to Oasis of Hope in Tijuana, Mexico. My friend Tania in NC had a family member and a friend, Kristen, who had successful treatments there. Kristen and I spoke several times about what it entailed. All seemed well. It wasn’t long before our tickets were bought and we were set to leave Miami on October 30^th. I had to go downtown to get my passport, and while waiting to speak to one of the officers there I prayed that God would send me to someone who was sociable. You know how it can be sometimes there- you meet someone who just wants to give you a hard time. However, God is so good! Not only did I go to the nicest lady, but she had just returned from Tijuana and proceeded to tell me all the places I should go to. Only God would do something like that. What are the odds of meeting someone who had just been to the very same place I was going? At that moment I was reminded that God orders every second of our day. Nothing goes unnoticed, so why worry? He has it all taken care of.

On this journey, God showed me that I would have to face two of my biggest fears that I have had for most of my life…that of flying, and of also dying. For me, it was about losing control with your life in the hands of the pilot.  As for dying….well, everyone cringes at the word “cancer” and I was no exception. However, one thing is certain…I am in the Lord’s hands. I pray that through all of this His name will be glorified and not me. Through restoration I want to be a living testimony of the goodness of the Lord. If I endure this trying process, and self does not awaken to life to feel hurt and abuse under the test that His probing knife will reveal that the soul is indeed dead to self, but alive unto God.” 5 BC 1152. I want victory over everything that is not of God, so here I am, Lord. I’m ready.

Tony and I woke up early Sunday morning for our trek across the country. I was determined to face my fear of flying head on.  I was reminded of a beautiful experience my prayer partner, Rosanna Ek, had shared with me. God has blessed her with revelations and visions…. and yes, I will be sharing more of those with you. One day Rosanna was driving on the highway and she heard some suspicious sounds coming from under the car. Something was obviously wrong. Although she had little knowledge of car maintenance, she pulled off the road and stopped the car. She could never have imagined the sight that awaited her. There under the car was an angel with arms outstretched over the front and back wheels. The angel was looking ahead very focused on his mission to get her to her destination, but for a brief moment, he turned to her and winked as if to say “I got this”, then focused once more to the task at hand. The car got her safely home, and as soon as she arrived she rushed in to tell her husband what had happened. The car was taken to the mechanic who said it was a miracle that she got that car home. The bar between the two front wheels were rusted and had clearly been broken for a while. Of course, it was nothing less than a miracle! The angel had kept her safe!!!

Could it be????

                 

I was assured that God would send an angel or two to hold that plane up. Our flight finally took off from Miami after being delayed for an hour due to suspicious luggage. As I sat by the window seat, I felt God’s peace as we took off, enjoying every moment of the changing terrains beneath me. I was elated! I peered through the window hoping that I too would see an angel. I didn’t but I smiled the whole time knowing my angel was there. Just before landing I took a picture…..Hmmmm….what do you think?!  God had promised that He would always be there. That was enough assurance for me. Due to the delay we missed our connecting flight in Dallas, and had to wait for a later flight three hours later, but that was alright. God had ordered our day, and every delay was for a reason. We finally made it to Oasis of Hope. I was exhausted, but hopeful. It was at this place that God was going to teach me many things. “Faithful is He that calls you, who also will do it. “ 1 Thessalonians 5:24

My Prayer: Dear Jesus,

Thank you for ordering our days according to Your perfect will. Thank you for your free gift of salvation, and thank you for not leaving us in the same condition You found us. Please continue to do a work of purification that our lives will be fully surrendered to You. Give us Your strength, courage and peace to face whatever comes our way because we have the assurance that You are always with us.

In Jesus’ Name we pray, Amen